The Galau Times : by the man of the past

I wish.. skrg taun 1998..

diiringi lagu Aku Cinta Kau dan Dia dari Ahmad Band, gue menjejakkan kaki di Bandung. Memfamiliarisasikan diri dengan kehidupan baru, kota baru, a new chapter of my life I never realised gonna be that precious.. The precious start!

Diiringi lagu Dont wanna miss a thingnya Aerosmith, gue begadang bersama temen2 baru gue..ngerjain tugas buat dikumpulin ke senior esok hari. Deg-degan karena swasta (buat yg gak kuliah di indo, ini istilah buat senior2 yg =>4 taun diatas kita, alias dah senior bgt) besok mau dateng dan as usual marah2 ama kita. I learned about Bandung, I learned about being Mahasiswa, I learned about life....
I wish skrg 1998. gue makan di K-One Els sama anak2 jengkis..kita bikin film Perjeti (Pergaulan Jengki Sejati)... sahur bareng di kantin tubagus... ke cafe2 rame2.. joget2 kyk anak SMA tengil yg baru jadi anak kuliahan.. diiringi lagu2 dari All bout the money dari Meja atau Blur, dimana di panggung bisa bawain lagu2 Acid Jazz sama si Mhala (S Band.. maksudnya dibaca Esben, mata kuliah Estetika Bentuk).. atau lagu2 Indies sama si Rere bersama Indische Partij yg later on menjadi (The Bandung) Void...
I wish.. skrg 1998. Pacar gue mgkn di Jakarta.. but I was having a hell of a time.

I wish.. skrg taun 2000....

Disaat lagu2 seperti Incubus jadi ada dimana2. Disaat semua org denger linkin park dan Limp Bizkit. VCD2 bajakan linkin park dan band2 yg beken saat itu beredar dari mulai emperan BIP sampe bazaar2 Unpar di GSG (gedung serbaguna)... Disaat uang terasa seret namun makanan2 tidak ada habis nikmatnya. I was a lot tougher.. tougher than 2 yrs before.. with the downside of being much more cynical in life. I judge people. was not very good. But Bandung, as always, was a very nice place to live in. Although i hated it so much. Kept wishing why i couldnt go back to jakarta like those guys who studied politics, economics, law.. damn shit.. I studied architecture, busted my ass off (without knowing that we will be the toughest working-lowest paid ppl in the whole damn world.. syiit! life aint fair.. but then again it never is). I missed most of the parties in those glorious rave resurrection. I blamed most on Bandung.

But still.. I wish it is yr 2000, where my life had no meaning.. not much goal within sight. Gue bakal pulang maen gitar.. nongkrong.. minum.. minum.. giting... minum.. giting.... minumm.. tanpa sadar hal ini bakal bikin usus gue dan lambung gue makin tipis dan bikin perut gue masalah untuk seluruh sisa hidup gue. damn..

I wish it is still 2000.. dimana seharusnya gue sadar gue masih punya byk waktu tersedia.. of course mgkn gue tetep akan minum dan giting terus.. gak akan berubah juga.. tapi mgkn gue akan lebih semangat buat nyari arti hidup.. at least for that short period of time.. I could play more often with my bands..entah yg mana. Or I couldve set up another band?.. or I couldve done someting else.. damn damn damn.. I wish it is year 2000.

I wish now is 2000.. I am cynical as hell... I hate Bandung more than anything.. not knowing that a deep love for the shithole will emerge from deep inside my heart.

Gue bakal bayar berapa aja buat kmbali.... Gue bakal bunuh siapa aja buat supaya gue bisa balik ke situ.. syiiitt meeenn.. Tuhan canggih juga yah.. bisa bikin waktu dan masa lalu jadi lebih berharga dari cewe manapun.. lebih berharga dari emas, berlian, atau bentuk bling2 lainnya... and you should know that.. For life is more precious than any women in this earth (or any men for you women)..more precious than any f@ck1n expensive paid jobs and top-of-the-mountain-careers... MY LIFE.. YOUR LIFE!.. SEIZE IT !!!.. CARPE DIEM

kali ini 2 era dulu yah.. masih byk era2 lain yg bisa gue jelasin lain kali.. save it for later..kekkeke..
well my point is.. life is full of chapters.. And you have your own.. as I have mine. And you should well aware now, as adult-wise-and-mature-beings, that those chapters will never occur again. You will never be the same.. Jakarta will never be like it was.. Bandung, Semarang, London, New York,.. name it.. name yourself a place, a time, .. picture yourself, picture some people, picture a moment... and yes.. you get yourself a free time machine!..
Gue mengenang masa lalu... karena gue tau hidup gak bisa ngulang.. and I should always cherish everyday.. cos it will be a part of my past, in the future..
so.. Choose Life!.. choose Now !!.. choose your Past !!!!..