Sick of it & Disgusted

To be honest I'm sick of everything. Sick and disgusted. Last nite I didn't even bother to see Rehan to talk about it, because it's just so disgusting I don't wanna know anything anymore.

So Truthfully, I don't wanna write it down here either. But then I thought, all lessons in life are worth to document. May not be useful for me, but for others. Maybe my children.

So, here goes.

Meeting her or knowing her can now be categorised as one of the biggest mistakes in my life. A person can be so despicable in her past but then may have changed and become a new person with a much better personalities and values. But for this case, the personalities and values never changed. A bitch will always be a bitch. A slut will always be a slut. There is a value there that will not change. Ever.

Air susu akan terus dibalas air tuba, dan niat baik akan selalu dibalas oleh niat jahar. It's a fact I have to face with her. My love for her and my good intentions are all worthless.

Her personalities and values really really disgust me!

And now that her friends are blindly opinionated towards her, they disgust me too.

This Ramadhan has been a battle for me. A tough challenge.

Patience, emotions, etc. I may have failed in some aspects. But I have to say, they have been some really really tough challenges.

Trying hard not to do anything against someone who acts so sickly and disgusting.

And also trying hard not to strike back when her friends (which sadly are my friends too) became opinionated and tried to corner me. It has all been some sick sick phenoma that I have to see and endure during a good month of Ramadhan.

Wish me luck, my dear Lord. Bless those mean people... Bless them with a good understanding of love and goodwill.
Amen.