Total Goddess

2 Kilos in 2 days of hardcore eating.

Mie Acim and the Dena drink

well.....
She's a total goddess... and there's no regret whatsoever.

The one I've been escaping from / The one who saved my life at the end of the night

I'm gonna write this story before I forgot all that had happened.

This is a story about how someone I tried hard to escape from, run away from, and forget all about for months, turned out to be the one who saved my life at the end of the night.

This story was simply a pure plain stupidity. After failing to fly to Medan, I finally decided to go to Playground. Arrange to meet friends, and planned to get high on LSD... Okay that's the start of the chaotic night.

One thing I forgot to remember was, that how in hell can I drive if I'm high on LSD?

Cutting things real short. I went there with Denise n friends. The muddiest event I've ever been in as it rained in the afternoon before the event. There I spent my time with my PL friends, all were high.. until I met Kandhita and then I spent more of the time with her and her friends.

But out of all those people, how is it possible that I bumped into the one I've been hiding away from? The one I never wanted to know about anymore, for the past few months?

At the end, people went back home. One by one. I was left finally without anyone I know. So I decided to return to my car and go back home. Only to find that I was too fucked up to do anything. It was even hard to get the keys into the damn keyhole. Hahahahaa.. so I was there inside my car, behind the driving wheel, not knowing what to do. I can't move my car and i was scared shitless! My heart was pounding and my hands are all shaking throughout the night. I've never had the experiences of driving in this situation before. I had often done drunk-driving and was fine, thank God. But never in this state. Shiiitttt!!!

The only one I can think about at that time was her. Maybe not because I thought she's the most important person in my life,  but because she was the last person I remember seeing, and somehow I knew would care enough to help me out.

So she was there in her car on Arteri PI, with 3 cans of bear brand milk for me. Very nice of her. Waited for me for a while as I was in such a wasted state.

God bless her... But too bad I don't think I can be with her anymore. She had her chances. Not one not two. Much more than that. But it's okay. That's life. It's strange, it's weird, and I don't know the end of this tunnel. Hell, I dont even have the clue for the riddle.

In Order to Be Reborn, You Need To Die First!

This is just something great I came up with.

You see? How can you expect yourself to be born again as someone new and fresh if you have not passed through the dark below?

You need to be dead first, mate! When you're dead, after tried everythin, and got nowhere to go! That's when you'll be re-born, insyaAllah

#MOR continues...

#MOR day 14. Still very tough. Thought abt it a lot, esp lately. But I know it's not rite. The #MOR is my path! The rest is just shite!

The place where I was is a place where there's no white! A place where there's no light! All those values that you'd fight! Ain't goin back to the place where I was ! 

Sounds Rhymey just like a rapper, innit?

Anyway, that's before noon.

In the afternoon a bomb dropped in my inbox. An email from her. She said it took her 20 days to send this email. Who waits for 20 days to send emails?

She sent a song. A youtube link. Natasha st.Pier - Tu Trouveras.

Nope. Not a rappy song! rather, a sad-dy song.. Not good! Had to stop! I'm starting to think about her again. No! Not rite!

Wait !!!... Pause !!!....

Okay.. Moving on!

Sorry I couldnt reply the email. #MOR forbids me to reply anything coming from you! Come back after "Eid"!

Cheerio!

Come, Brain! Stay Calm!

Trying to juggle work is a tough tough task.

I know that I've been wanting to be able to be busy with various different activities.

I am having it now, and it's creating panic in my mind. Panic that I may not be able to deliver some of my works as expected. Fingers crossed. Let's go! Let's do this! Dear brain, stay healthy! I need you to do the unthinkable in the calmest manner possible!