Cewe-cewe Yang Gak Pernah Tau Apa Yang Mereka Mau

Jadi sebenernya gue cuman sambil nunggu download CD sambil cari2 cover album buat dimasukin ke ipod, sambil chatting ama nyokap di india..
Tapi gue pengen cerita sesuatu..
Mungkin buat beberapa orang yg udah lihat cukup banyak, mereka akan paham dengan terminologi2 di lagu2 gue (Raygava et.al.),... tipe2 cewe seperti apa yg gue coba gambarkan di lagu2 spt Kedua Tercantik dan Saling Menipu (Perempuan Murahan).. Yah walau terminologi gue cukup banyak dan butuh waktu yg cukup lama utk jelasin spesifikasi dari tiap2 istilah ini.. dan emang mereka agak2 beda sih..
Yah mereka to some certain extent bisa kita sebut cewe2 murah.. atau cewe2 beyotch..atau penggoda atau cewe2 nakal
Bagi bbrp orang, mereka disebut cewe2 player.... atau heartbreaker..
buat gue.... mereka cukup gue sebut, cewe2 yg gak pernah tau apa yg mereka mau..

But Myself, personally, I'm always fine with them.. If they're cheap.. if they're bitches.. i like to party in clubs.. i like to get drunk... so i dun really care... but pls pls pliiss abis, say the truth.. Be honest to yourself (well i guess they can't that's why mereka dibilang cewe2 yg gak pernah tau apa yg mereka mau.. cz they dont.. they dont even know who they are..)... kan kasian book lama2 juga jadinya...
Jadi begini.. Kebanyakan cewe2 beginian....eh..
StOP.!.. oke oke.. lupa nih.. gue harus jelasin dulu ini cewe2 yg begimana sih yg gue lagi kupas disini...
Okeh.. jadi pasti lo tau cewe2 ini..: Mereka pandai berdandan, wanita penggoda, otomatis agak2 tolol n intelektualitas rendah, punya koleksi mantan pacar yg segudang (belum termasuk cowo2 yg cuman datang2 bentar), .. mereka sangat suka direspect dan dihargai.. Definisi mereka di respect n dihargai adalah: Mendapatkan fasilitas bintang lima utk jasa penjemputan, makanan, dan hiburan. Yg lagi gue kupas ini bukan cewe2 murahan yg mau ama om2.. Mereka jijik kok sama Om2.. tapi mereka senang cowo2 muda yg kaya (atau lebih enaknya, anak orang kaya), yg lumayan ganteng, dan siap membawa mereka having fun. (which generally can be described as drinking, smoking pots, kissing n touching, getting high on some stupid pills, some includes heroin, crack,..and also maybe a li'l bit of f*ckin,if they're really crazy abt you.. (and yes that's why we love them)..Hmmm apalagi yah.. Mereka ini jelas yg suka banyak.. karena mereka cantik (to some extent, dan bukan tipe cewe yg pecun2 amat alias masih berkelas dikit)... and they're just one of your friends kok.

Gue gak ada stok gambar.. jadi ini deh kebetulan abis cari covernya suede... yahh kira2 beginilah pemandangan di club yah.... cewe2 yg kita cintai.. amiiinnn.. hahaha
Oke.. jadi kita lanjutkan.. jadi begini.. Entah kenapa , cewe2 begini, mereka akan selalu kebingungan..
Mereka gak pernah tahu apakah mereka tuh sebenernya masih pengen mabuk sana sini, dugem sana-sini, atau mau settle, atau mau menikah, atau mau mencoba hubungan serius, atau mau f*ckin around aja, atau mau jadi player, atau mau jadi wanita karir, atau apa... the problem.. mereka gak pernah tau mereka mau apa.
Mengapa?... Secara ilmu psikologis, untuk logisnya aja, seseorang gak bakal tau mereka mau apa kalo mereka gak tau mereka ada di mana. Kalo gak salah gue pernah nulis ttg hal kayak gini, tapi waktu itu lebih condong kepada urusan karir (silakan browse posting2 gue yg dulu2).. Nah skrg urusan social life sbnrnya sama.. Lo gak akan mungkin tau lo maunya apa kalo lo gak tau lo berada dimana?
Dimanakah lo berada, dalam parameter klasifikasi social life? Apakah anda ini sebenarnya?
Apakah saya ini player? apakah saya ini sebenernya seorang yg cupu?.. cupunya segimana> super cupu? sangat cupu? super bitch? bitch dikit2? bitch abeess?.. hahahha macem2 nyet.. lo harus tau exact location lo dimana. Nah ini yg cewe2 begini gak pernah tau. Mereka gak tau to what extent their bitchi-ness is. Mereka bisa aja mengira mereka udah mau settle.
"gue kyknya udah mau hidup yang sttle deh"
"gue mau deh kawin taun depan kalo ada yg ngajak" (ini aja udah pernyataan yg menandakan ketololan mereka dan cuman sebatas apa otak mereka berfungsi)
"gue bukan player ahhh.. gue tuh disakitin terus, lagii" (ya iya lah, mana ada maling ngaku maling. hahaha... buat yg kenal gue jangan ketawa lo!.. kalo gue sih emang sering disakitin!. hahha)
one point to learn here: NEVER SAY SOMETHING YOU KNOW YOU CAN'T KEEP!!
Jangan sekali2 lo bilang kalo lo mau hidup settle kalo sebenernya lo masih suka brantakan kesana sini.. Makanya gue juga gak pernah tuh bilang mau kawin ahhhh... engga tuh.. you know why? krn yah emang gue tau gue masih brantakan, to some extent. Jangan bilang lo udah jadi Kijang kalo lo masih Ferrari (urusan Kijang-Ferrari ini mgkn bisa gue jelaskan lain waktu.... and istilah Kijang-Ferrari adalah copyrights Patton dan anak PL)...
Kebanyakan cewe2 begini mereka kebingungan.. gak punya arah.. gak punya pegangan yg pasti. Orang2 yg pinter masih punya pegangan, karirnya lah, keluarganya lah.... cewe2 begini kan valuesnya juga udah agak2 aneh yah.. jadi yah mereka emang gak punya pegangan lagi.. secara mereka juga kaga pinter (makanya dibodohin kita cowo2 juga percaya2 aja ahahaha)... Kadang mereka pikir pernikahan adalah solusinya.
Mereka pikir pernikahan bisa menyelamatkan mereka dari ke"berantakan"an hidupnya. Yakin?
hehehhehhee.. karena justru darisini lah lahir hubungan2 "pernikahan modern" dimana suami suka2 ng3ntot diluar rumah dan pulang malam, dan istri2 juga sibuk dengan aktivitas yoga atau buka kamar di hotel dg partnernya... Wahhh betapa majunya pernikahan jaman sekarang. yahhh tapi apa boleh buat. Inilah solusi kebahagiaan yg kita cari... eh sori.. yg mereka cari.
udah ahh.. cape juga yahh ngomongin kayak ginian.... gak ada abisnya.. No one can solve their problems.. Cz they wont know whether they want their problems solved or not.
Maybe not.. dan lalu disinilah berlaku hukum rimba. Hukum alam terbesar....

yang baik akan bersama yang baik (menikah dengan yang baik, hidup kehidupan yang cukup baik, punya anak2 yg cukup baik, dan in overall cukup oke lah)..
sementara yang rusak akan rusak (menikah kedalam pernikahan yg rusak, menjalani kehidupan keluarga rusak, punya anak2 yg nantinya jadi ikut rusak, dan in overall cukup rusak lahh)....
so?.. now that you know.... which path do you want to take?

Yahhh ini juga deh covernya deftones... yahh mgkn kira2 bisa begini juga sih...
ehhehehe... basi yah.. buat yg been there done that... i hope we can find our way to the end.! ;) hehhehe amen.

The Weirdos (Episode 4: The Weird Psycho Man)

Akhirnya.. for the multiply ppl.. sori telat gue copy paste nya.. hehhee this was actually published Oct 1, 2006. but do enjoy for those who havent.. Akhirnye gue mutuskan untuk dipercepat ending. it was gonna be a 6 episode series.. tapi gak jadi.. :( sorry..




Finally, i'm tired.. been wanting to do this since when i started this "the weirdos" series .. so here goes.. this is the final episode of 'The Weirdos'!... the one to conclude all the previous ones. May we all now rest in silences..
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The Weird Psycho Man

And so there's this Psycho man. He wanders around lookin for things maybe he wasn't  sure of. He was lookin for the answers to his life. (well, is there any?)

He thought he had it all, he thought he had found the one. But first, one thing about this guy, he always makes crazy decisions. Decisions people wouldn't do.. he's a psycho... a total psycho.

And so he had everything, a career moving towards a settled life, a woman he proclaimed to be 'the one', he had everything a normal-common people would ever wish. But he decided to turn everything around. He destroyed his dream for a common life.. Why?.. cz he's not common.. He's a psycho. And He always said "it takes a big heart to become a psycho..!" And somehow he seemed to all of us someone proud of his mental illness.

During his period of destruction... he met again with the woman of his dreams. (literally and not-literally).. And yes, God has been really good to him (and this i dun even know why). But as expected, his psycho mind spread the pscyho acts.
A woman of his dreams, someone anyone would fight to keep... but no, he drove her away. So now he drove away the one and the woman of his dream.

He never realised the hurt slowly growing inside him from the actions he took. He was careless cause his actions did not heal his mental illness.. it made him worse. Hurt after hurt after hurt, he became more psycho than ever. but God never stop loving this psycho... He gave him chances after chances.. chances to do good, chances to fix his mistakes, chances to heal himself...
not one, not two,.. but three or more..
But he is a total psycho.. The most psychotic man I've ever met!!.. honestly...

He drove away everything once again...
Now the hurt he experienced has grown into something he could not handle anymore. It's like a chain reaction.. the more he got hurt, the more he hurt. And the circle grew bigger and bigger, making contacts to people who were not involved before.

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So that's some brief summary of him. Now to detail his psychotic behaviour!

He had a date once, with this woman of his dreams (another chance to make it work), to a wedding. For some reasons of misunderstanding, the woman thought the wedding is for the following week. But during the afternoon of that day, this psycho guy found out the wedding is on that very day. So he texted the woman, no reply. Called her, no answer.. tried again hours later, still the same... So his devilish psychotic mind started to think psycho. and so he texted her, "it's okay.. i know you probably pretended to forget the wedding date so that u can go there with another man. It's alrite. I'm going there too with my friends.. so c u there!"

goddamnit.. how psyhco is daat????
And not so long after that, his phone rang.. the woman called. She was sleeping throughout the afternoon.... the rest, is just history. history for his dreams to be with this woman. hahahahhaha.. psychooo!!..

He is a psycho in everything.. but mostly to women. The more he's obsessed the more psychotic he becamee... Scary... or Scar-ry (since he has been thru alot of hurt as well - all thru his own actions/decisions of course)? An annoying thing about him, is that he's always inconsistent. The things on his mind.. and the words that came out of his mouth... the words he said to women who hurt him... the words he said to his friends.. all can be different. He has this pride on his shoulder he thinks he should carry.. and that he shows to his friends... but to the women who hurt him.. he;s nothing.. he has no pride..
Now he's soulless, not able to rest, knowing he has screwed up so many things in his life with his stupied ideal that life should be lived as crazy as posibble.

And the best thing abt this guy... he thinks everyone else is a psycho!!!!... hahahhahah
The women who hurt him he called 'em psychos... the women whom he hurt he called them psychos... Without ever realising it was him all along... It was his mad actions who drove everything away from him. So now.. his psycho brain has led him to a world of emptiness, hollowness ... he now has nothing. Nothing's left. And he is experiencing the biggest hurt he ever experienced.. and if u think that will cure his illness.. uh uh.. no no.. that made him more psycho than ever. a crazy man. a lunatic... cz he's the most psycho man i've ever met in my entire life!!!...

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and btw, that man is myself.

Saling Menipu (lyric)

by: Regawa Paramasiddi, 2005

Saling Menipu (Perempuan Murahan)

Sering kutemukan kau perempuan
Yang tak bisa duduk berdiam berkata jujur sekali saja
Sering kau mencoba berpura-pura
Dan aku ikut dalam permainanmu

Sudah terlalu jelas bagi aku,
terlalu sering ku bertemu, .... tipe yang seperti dirimu
Kau pikir sudah berapa lama aku.. menahan rasa malas yang bertumpuk di dadaku...

Perempuan murahan tetap kan terus murahan
Tak akan berubah walau uang sudah bertaburan
dan
Perempuan gampangan kan selalu kugampangkan
karena mereka hanya ingin agar dipuaskan

Dan kamu dan aku..habiskan waktu.. saling menipu..
Lihatlah kamu..dengan sandiwaramu kau belum ingin mengaku

Sudah terlalu jelas bagi aku,
terlalu sering ku bertemu, .... tipe yang seperti dirimu
Kau pikir sudah berapa lama aku.. menahan rasa malas yang bertumpuk di dadaku...

Perempuan murahan tetap kan terus murahan
Tak akan berubah walau uang sudah bertaburan
dan
Lelaki yang bajingan kan slalu memanfaatkan
dengan sgala janji-janji hanya sebatas omongan

Dan kamu dan aku..habiskan waktu.. saling menipu..
Lihatlah kamu..dengan sandiwaramu kau belum ingin mengaku

You're Leaving Soon (lyric)

by Regawa Paramasiddi , 2005

You're Leaving Soon

A little bit of smile to brighten your face
A little bit of laugh is what I embrace
I'm falling fall to pieces
Watching you made your every little moves

*And love is not a case of mysteries
Love should not be held in diaries
I don't have much time
Cause you are leaving soon

You should be involved in this serenade
And so you could open up and see what I'm made of.
You will fall for me.. fall for me..

intro..
I wish that I could be a much less loser
So I can prove myself and just be closer to you
Cuz I adore you..it's about you and 'bout the way you move

*

I see some roses green as the trees up on the hill
I know just how you feel... about this...how awkward it is..

I know it's not the greatest time of the year
But you should know that all I want is just to be near
to you I'll give myself... over and over and over

*

The Weirdos (Episode 3: The Weird Violent-Moodswings Woman)

To those who have waited for this 3rd episode. Actually I didn't wanna write this 3rd episode. Been thru hard times ... so I wasn't really in the mood. I wish I could jump straight to episode 5, which is going to be the finale... but.. to reach five, one has to pass three and four, first.. so here goes.. _______________________________________________________________________

The Weird Violent Moodswings Woman

Let me tell you about this girl. She is a bit crazy. Somehow she has this ‘jutek’ look and it’s all natural. But I thought it’s fine. Cz I too was known for my jutek look back in college. But apparently, she has also a strange personality that goes with that jutek look.

My friend told me she was a depressed woman. Somehow feeling that the world is just sooo sooo cruel.. you know?.. just like those drug addicts in the movies. So yes, she likes to get high on marijuanas (which is fine, cz I do too), likes to drink (I do too), and take some anti depressant pills (this I don’t do). So somehow I thought, “god, life must be cruel to her…”

 Have you ever watched “failure to launch”?.. there was ‘Kit’, the girl with strange moodswings played by Zooey Deschanel…? Well that was the cute version of a girl with moodswings… But this woman here, she's more like the girl in “Prozac Nation”… Always looking for trouble, and cause uneasiness to her surroundings.

 
I imagined her being from a broken family, had an unloving mother, a bad sister or any other reason for being depressed. But no!!.. Her family was just fine. Yes she lost her father when she was young.. but that’s still not a good reason, cz her mother is still there. Her mother was very educated, so her family is financially fine.. And she’s not even dating anyone. So there’s definitely no hatred for a step-father. Her sister was fine. And her aunt and cousin (whom I ‘ve met) were okay and were very kind to me. So I thought, this girl should not have any reason to be depressed and act depressed. But the most important thing is that she shows this attitude to public. She shows that she’s somehow depressed, and somehow, often her presence becomes annoyance, not only to ppl who don’t know her, but more importantly to her own friends.

One time, she was mad to my friend (who should be closer to her than to myself, since she had known her before I did) bcz of a simple incident in cinema. The day after, she won’t even talk to my friend. She was practically sitting in front of me and her (my friend).. and she was talking only to me. Oohh so weird.

Another thing that is the most irritating, according to her friends, which in this case was my new friends that time, was the fact that she had this boy best friend who apparently had a big crush on her. (read: ngarep!!). Well, the thing is, everytime they had a quarrel (of course, they're weirdos, do u think they’re not gonna hv a quarrel?), she lets out this destructive mood that would kill any fun her friends were having.

She, and her violent mood swings… that’s her!

In my personal case, I had troubles understanding what she wanted. One time she was mad bcz she thought I was putting sleeping pills to the drinks in the club.. (dooh??.. such a weirdo).. Then the next time we had lunch and she told my friend that it was the perfect date she always wanted…(??).. but then, the same day, at the evening we met with our friends to see a movie and she ended up being mad to all her friends just bcz they took the seats in the middle. While, I, the one who picked her up, and did not know most of her friends, was left sitting alone (of course I expected her to sit beside me)… And after the movie, she suddenly was letting out all this bad mood and personalities to me on the phone, telling me that she was pissed off of the situation and all.. (doohhh??.. I thought I was the one who should be pissed off of the situation back at the cinema).. well the next day, she didn’t want to say a word to my friend (the one I told before).

She told my friend I was the perfect guy, we had the perfect date, her mother always pushed her to be with me, she even told her to marry me, and so did most of her aunties… yet, she always had this bad prejudices abt me. And she still lets out this everlasting bad temperament and violent moods whenever I called. (??).. A Suggestion: Do you do that to a guy u like.. (but then I remember watching Prozac Nation on DVD, played by Christina Ricci.. so much like her)

But let’s just go straight to the end. One day I asked her out for dinner. But then her also-psycho boy best friend got jealous and went totally ngambek dan gak penting abbess…

Then I told her how I was sick of both of them and their strange ngambek tendencies. She said sorry, and thanked me for being honest. She said she will respect me from then on bcz I told her the truth (that most of their friends don’t like em), and hope that maybe she could introspect!

But…. The next day, she called my friend (without knowing that I was there just beside her listening to the conversation), and she was very mad at me. Asking why I was so mean. Apparently she had told almost all her friends abt what I did, what I said, tried to get support…. Whatt??.. what’s with the thank you the day before?.. and the sorry?.. and the introspection?... hahahahhahhaa

She was totally mad and furious. And she thought I was the one who’s weird and they were the normals. (fyi, since then she and her best friend are called ‘the normalz’.. as opposed to ‘the weirdos’.. bcz they think they’re the normal ppl, the common,.. and we are the ones who were strange and weird for thinking that they’re weird).. a bit cofusing innit?..

 
Well there you have it.. !

A strange weird woman with Violent-moodswings, who always blame people, blame the world. She will never accept that her destructive moodswings have been causing irritations from her presence. Marijuanas, anti-depressant were her escape from this ever-cruel world of hers. Of course, she consumes those with all her weird friends… I guess that’s why the world is just so cruel…