Saling Menipu (lyric)

by: Regawa Paramasiddi, 2005

Saling Menipu (Perempuan Murahan)

Sering kutemukan kau perempuan
Yang tak bisa duduk berdiam berkata jujur sekali saja
Sering kau mencoba berpura-pura
Dan aku ikut dalam permainanmu

Sudah terlalu jelas bagi aku,
terlalu sering ku bertemu, .... tipe yang seperti dirimu
Kau pikir sudah berapa lama aku.. menahan rasa malas yang bertumpuk di dadaku...

Perempuan murahan tetap kan terus murahan
Tak akan berubah walau uang sudah bertaburan
dan
Perempuan gampangan kan selalu kugampangkan
karena mereka hanya ingin agar dipuaskan

Dan kamu dan aku..habiskan waktu.. saling menipu..
Lihatlah kamu..dengan sandiwaramu kau belum ingin mengaku

Sudah terlalu jelas bagi aku,
terlalu sering ku bertemu, .... tipe yang seperti dirimu
Kau pikir sudah berapa lama aku.. menahan rasa malas yang bertumpuk di dadaku...

Perempuan murahan tetap kan terus murahan
Tak akan berubah walau uang sudah bertaburan
dan
Lelaki yang bajingan kan slalu memanfaatkan
dengan sgala janji-janji hanya sebatas omongan

Dan kamu dan aku..habiskan waktu.. saling menipu..
Lihatlah kamu..dengan sandiwaramu kau belum ingin mengaku

You're Leaving Soon (lyric)

by Regawa Paramasiddi , 2005

You're Leaving Soon

A little bit of smile to brighten your face
A little bit of laugh is what I embrace
I'm falling fall to pieces
Watching you made your every little moves

*And love is not a case of mysteries
Love should not be held in diaries
I don't have much time
Cause you are leaving soon

You should be involved in this serenade
And so you could open up and see what I'm made of.
You will fall for me.. fall for me..

intro..
I wish that I could be a much less loser
So I can prove myself and just be closer to you
Cuz I adore you..it's about you and 'bout the way you move

*

I see some roses green as the trees up on the hill
I know just how you feel... about this...how awkward it is..

I know it's not the greatest time of the year
But you should know that all I want is just to be near
to you I'll give myself... over and over and over

*

The Weirdos (Episode 3: The Weird Violent-Moodswings Woman)

To those who have waited for this 3rd episode. Actually I didn't wanna write this 3rd episode. Been thru hard times ... so I wasn't really in the mood. I wish I could jump straight to episode 5, which is going to be the finale... but.. to reach five, one has to pass three and four, first.. so here goes.. _______________________________________________________________________

The Weird Violent Moodswings Woman

Let me tell you about this girl. She is a bit crazy. Somehow she has this ‘jutek’ look and it’s all natural. But I thought it’s fine. Cz I too was known for my jutek look back in college. But apparently, she has also a strange personality that goes with that jutek look.

My friend told me she was a depressed woman. Somehow feeling that the world is just sooo sooo cruel.. you know?.. just like those drug addicts in the movies. So yes, she likes to get high on marijuanas (which is fine, cz I do too), likes to drink (I do too), and take some anti depressant pills (this I don’t do). So somehow I thought, “god, life must be cruel to her…”

 Have you ever watched “failure to launch”?.. there was ‘Kit’, the girl with strange moodswings played by Zooey Deschanel…? Well that was the cute version of a girl with moodswings… But this woman here, she's more like the girl in “Prozac Nation”… Always looking for trouble, and cause uneasiness to her surroundings.

 
I imagined her being from a broken family, had an unloving mother, a bad sister or any other reason for being depressed. But no!!.. Her family was just fine. Yes she lost her father when she was young.. but that’s still not a good reason, cz her mother is still there. Her mother was very educated, so her family is financially fine.. And she’s not even dating anyone. So there’s definitely no hatred for a step-father. Her sister was fine. And her aunt and cousin (whom I ‘ve met) were okay and were very kind to me. So I thought, this girl should not have any reason to be depressed and act depressed. But the most important thing is that she shows this attitude to public. She shows that she’s somehow depressed, and somehow, often her presence becomes annoyance, not only to ppl who don’t know her, but more importantly to her own friends.

One time, she was mad to my friend (who should be closer to her than to myself, since she had known her before I did) bcz of a simple incident in cinema. The day after, she won’t even talk to my friend. She was practically sitting in front of me and her (my friend).. and she was talking only to me. Oohh so weird.

Another thing that is the most irritating, according to her friends, which in this case was my new friends that time, was the fact that she had this boy best friend who apparently had a big crush on her. (read: ngarep!!). Well, the thing is, everytime they had a quarrel (of course, they're weirdos, do u think they’re not gonna hv a quarrel?), she lets out this destructive mood that would kill any fun her friends were having.

She, and her violent mood swings… that’s her!

In my personal case, I had troubles understanding what she wanted. One time she was mad bcz she thought I was putting sleeping pills to the drinks in the club.. (dooh??.. such a weirdo).. Then the next time we had lunch and she told my friend that it was the perfect date she always wanted…(??).. but then, the same day, at the evening we met with our friends to see a movie and she ended up being mad to all her friends just bcz they took the seats in the middle. While, I, the one who picked her up, and did not know most of her friends, was left sitting alone (of course I expected her to sit beside me)… And after the movie, she suddenly was letting out all this bad mood and personalities to me on the phone, telling me that she was pissed off of the situation and all.. (doohhh??.. I thought I was the one who should be pissed off of the situation back at the cinema).. well the next day, she didn’t want to say a word to my friend (the one I told before).

She told my friend I was the perfect guy, we had the perfect date, her mother always pushed her to be with me, she even told her to marry me, and so did most of her aunties… yet, she always had this bad prejudices abt me. And she still lets out this everlasting bad temperament and violent moods whenever I called. (??).. A Suggestion: Do you do that to a guy u like.. (but then I remember watching Prozac Nation on DVD, played by Christina Ricci.. so much like her)

But let’s just go straight to the end. One day I asked her out for dinner. But then her also-psycho boy best friend got jealous and went totally ngambek dan gak penting abbess…

Then I told her how I was sick of both of them and their strange ngambek tendencies. She said sorry, and thanked me for being honest. She said she will respect me from then on bcz I told her the truth (that most of their friends don’t like em), and hope that maybe she could introspect!

But…. The next day, she called my friend (without knowing that I was there just beside her listening to the conversation), and she was very mad at me. Asking why I was so mean. Apparently she had told almost all her friends abt what I did, what I said, tried to get support…. Whatt??.. what’s with the thank you the day before?.. and the sorry?.. and the introspection?... hahahahhahhaa

She was totally mad and furious. And she thought I was the one who’s weird and they were the normals. (fyi, since then she and her best friend are called ‘the normalz’.. as opposed to ‘the weirdos’.. bcz they think they’re the normal ppl, the common,.. and we are the ones who were strange and weird for thinking that they’re weird).. a bit cofusing innit?..

 
Well there you have it.. !

A strange weird woman with Violent-moodswings, who always blame people, blame the world. She will never accept that her destructive moodswings have been causing irritations from her presence. Marijuanas, anti-depressant were her escape from this ever-cruel world of hers. Of course, she consumes those with all her weird friends… I guess that’s why the world is just so cruel…